1. |
happy ending
06:25
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[chorus b]
i can’t read your mind
but i wish that i could
so i could see into the future
and you’d be understood
and i’m hoping for a happy ending,
knocking on wood
but if im waiting for you
i just don’t know if i should
want to read your mind
because i wish that i could
so i could make a future
where you’d be understood
and i’m hoping for a happy ending,
knocking on wood
but if im waiting for you
i just don’t know if i should
(because i)
[verse]
i want to feel the soft earth under my feet (under my feet)
instead of rubber soles and hard concrete (concrete, concrete)
they say mystery is just part of seduction
like billowing sails on unfinished construction (have you seen it?)
and when they tear it down do we even want to rebuild?
take all away, try something new, let the forest refill
[chorus a]
i have precognition for the post-apocalyptic
give me superpowers to decrypt it
i’m talking in circles because my thoughts are elliptic
in a heart shape hanging from my neck: your face in a diptych
[verse]
walking in the woods never sounded so sweet (so sweet, so sweet)
and wanting to talk to everyone that i meet (everyone that i meet)
i have superpowers and i need no introduction (you’ve heard this before)
controlled demolition because i want the destruction (can you see it?)
and when its all gone what if i don’t feel fulfilled?
i hope when the time comes i can trust myself still
[bridge]
i'm not over growth, the overgrowth will come
to fruition, the mission of what we built undone,
i can’t stand for fruits to bear
what i can’t bear to hear,
i’m going to walk into the woods
you can stay and watch me disappear
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2. |
25 hours
04:21
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[intro]
same missing limbs over and over again
lame liminal kissing when you’re over again
hating having my hands taken by the same hands drawn
awake and being fated to be faded til dawn
[prechorus]
i'm losing to a fate that’s winning me over
thats whining over me lying over the dining room table
you aren’t keeping me i start to feel like i'm abel
to sleep by myself losing parts of my heart to the cards
[chorus]
it’s been a twelve hour blur
and a twelve hour nightmare
i can’t stay awake,
i can’t sleep, i can’t care
x2
[verse]
i’m become cain from the deck, i'm in pain from the neck, why can’t you fix my brain, i'm a wreck
why can’t i neurosurgeon yours so we could lay to rest assured
the dream i could finally relax if you would show me how...
what was i to you then if you don't even know that now
[verse]
(its) been a twelve hour blur
and a twelve hour nightmare
can’t leave my room can’t face my doom
want a twenty-fifth under the moon
stay tuned its coming soon
cant sleep for what we were
awake and unaware
x2
[bridge]
twelve hour blur and a twelve hour nightmare
sorry i can’t be her, not that you care.
which is sweet, to be fair,
and in fairness, i was careless,
sitting in the sunshine
like a fairy with my fairness.
and it’s unfair of me to be so fixated on fairness
seeking reciprocity with unnecessary ferocity,
as something softly spoken with curiosity,
behind curtains courting courtesy in this cursed city.
i can’t expect you to forgive me,
or give me a second chance
at a minute wish for (h)our
time together being anything but burning you, like my yearning to
see the sun again - but i'm earning my wings on The Tower
dreaming of The World, and its power
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3. |
fbi agent man
04:52
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[prechorus]
i knew there would be nothing better than this
i'm glad you’re looking after me
my angel in a suit and sunglasses
the thought of any other love is scary
[chorus]
i don’t want to explain myself
to someone new ever again
kiss me through the phone
i'm alone
fbi agent man
[verse]
eyes on my screen
my fbi’s eyes on me
through my webcam
use a stronger password
abc
antivirus scan
series of tubes,
changing my mood
but i had you
it felt so strange
to meet a stranger who knew everything,
i do what i can
[verse]
i wish, i wish, i wish it were true
i thought i was alone in the universe, but for you...
when you’re online or we’re talking
cool my drive i’m overclocking
if i do wrong,
take up the sword,
override my keyboard.
feeling assured
as if you’re by my side
wide eyed, hold
my attention span
[bridge]
i don't like the way you look at me
but i can't bear to lose you
what if i don't have it again
but it was good in the end
are you interested in me
or just watching for something to do
baby if i don't find this again
maybe it was good in the end
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4. |
knew you
03:45
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[chorus]
and i knew you
saw through you
every word to the letter
and i know you
even though you
try to tell me know better
[verse]
i'm just too scared
to let myself
feel how i feel about you
whether it's good or bad
unconditional love
and it's the best i had
i know this love is rare
but i need time
to heal how i feel about you
ugly completes the triad
i know you love me
but you treat me to drive me mad
[verse]
this morning
turning over thoughts
and my body in bed
i'm in mourning
my dreams lost
about what you said
pathetic in empathy
i can see
from your point of view
why you don’t care about me
like i care about you
why don’t you care about me
[chorus]
and i knew you
see through you
ever since last october
and i know you
even though you
try to tell me its over
[outro]
i know i need a way out i better
how can i go on with never
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5. |
777 sea song
02:45
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lost in the sea, i found you
you let the waves surround you,
leave it to me and i'll try not to drown, you
are nearly pulling me down
let me be your buoy,
let me give you the ring
that’s the thing that you’re holding on to
when you think you are sinking
and the scary thing is,
i know how good you are at swimming
so i couldn’t imagine i'd find you like this
it hasn’t been
so dangerous since the beginning
though i know you’ve always been one to dive in
and even though we’re at sea level
i feel like i'm in thin air
my heart beat entering treble
in frequency and i don’t care
air is thinning
head is spinning
from the altitude, i’m soaring
and the water is roaring
press your lips to mine if you need any oxygen
we could share
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6. |
getting there
04:44
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[chorus]
forget thinking what could have been
i'm starting to think what i could be, if i would care
i wish i knew how to quit you
it doesn't matter, we’re getting there
[verse]
i could be swimming
or singing or running a mile (9)
or painting
or waiting for once in a while
or baking
or making up stories in my head (9)
or hanging
but not like i’m dead (by a thread)
i could be dancing
or chancing a gambling table
(advancing beyond who i have been)
or writing
or fighting for what i am able (for everything i said)
or sewing
or knowing or reading books unread
or chilling
and not cold with dread
[bridge]
ok now i need to take a break
i wanna say something to take the pressure off
because i think a lot about what i can’t do
instead of the slow progress i’m making
but still, just like Gyllenhaal,
i wish i knew how to quit you
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haven't New York
nonbinary music for queer angst
i am based in brooklyn ,,,, for now
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